sitting, waiting, wishing....

for a J.O.B.

i want a freaking job. i want a job that will pay me what i am worth. i want a job that will pay me in general (apparently some employers think i would work for free). i want a job that will allow me to use my creative juices to do something productive. i worked hard to get where i am....but really i feel like i am nowhere. it's frustrating. i feel like i have hit a wall. i don't know where to look. job search sites SUCK. they don't pull up anything worthwhile...at least not for what i am looking for. i just want to get the ball rolling... i don't wanna do just anything. i want to like my job. at this point, i may just start bartending again and figure it out along the way

cause in the end... a girl just needs some money :)

looking forward...

Life has been grand lately. I have just really been looking forward to what lies next in my life...in every capacity:

• I am excited to start physical therapy tomorrow. I am ready to get my back strong and I am committed to making sure it stays that way. I long for the day I can start to shed these extra pounds I have put on since I am unable to do a full workout...I'm sick of feeling gross and I am ready to feel pretty all over :)


• I am excited to go on a date. I don't remember the last time I went on a date that I didn't initiate myself. Actually...I don't know if that has ever happened in my life. I am just one of those girls who goes after what I want. So it was really nice to be pursued; tomorrow should be a good evening :) that is, as long as the snow storm blowing through doesn't prevent it.


• I am excited for this upcoming weekend. Mardi Gras itself is guaranteed to be a good time, but when you throw in the fact that it will be a sigma/sms reunion it only gets better. So glad to have such fun friends.


• I am excited to finally get this job thing nailed down. It has been frustrating searching...finding I'm either horribly under or over qualified for any position that amuses me. I don't wanna just get a job to have one; I hope it doesn't come down to me having to do that.

All in all...I am excited for the happy days to come....

Oh, and another source of happiness is always Gus...here are some of the latest: